Showing posts with label gay-for-pay. Show all posts
Showing posts with label gay-for-pay. Show all posts
Monday, October 24, 2016
Fuckable Body... Unlovable Soul
Fuckable Body... Unlovable Soul from LeNair Xavier on Vimeo.
How can anyone respect, like, or even love a gay pornstar when 95+% are either racist, gay-for-pay, or lowering their worth by having sex with the aforementioned? That's why I have never respected the likes of Conner Habib, but the racism of gay media does. That's why me and Victor Hoff when he was doing Men of Color blog had a disagreement over Devon Hunter.
Victor Hoff once interviewed Devon Hunter. In that interview, they talked about racism in the gay porn industry, and what Devon was slated to do next. Well, not the exact words, but Devon Hunter's replies could justifiably been paraphrased as saying:
"Yes, there's racism in the gay porn industry... Well, let me go rest up, and abstain from cumming so I can be ready to shoot that scene for Falcon."
Yes, in that same interview, Devon Hunter spoke against racism, but also announced working for one of the most racist of gay porn studios. So excuse me. But I can't be of a sane mind telling myself to respect Devon Hunter and others like him when they claim to acknowledge the racism in the gay porn industry, then either pull out their hard-ons to stick it in the ass of a racist or gay-for-pay bitch in denial, or bend over to take in their dick... All in the same breath.
I've avoided this topic for so long because it meant calling out some people who I thought very well of at one time. The most recent known name is Chris Harder. So imagine my disappointment when he made his porn debut by signing an exclusive contract with Cocky Boys, says he's attracted to men of color in his debut video, YET to this day, Cocky Boys has no models darker that light caramel brown. Then after that contract, he has scenes with other racist studios, having sex with white boy after white boy.
And I'm sure some of you who are loyal fans are ready to chime in on how he's working with NextDoorEbony, so I shouldn't be complaining. Actually, me and any racially sensitive non-black still should complain. For NextDoorEbony is a branch of NextDoorStudios made up during the Recession so NextDoorStudios could stay afloat by doing "something new" (for them)---fetishizing black guys. And those black models are never seen in scenes for NextDoorBuddies or any other site from NextDoorStudios, like NextDoorStudio's white and light Latino models. So before coming to Chris Harder's defense on this, consider all of that.
Now, Chris Harder is not the 1st to disappoint me like this. He is one of a loooong list. It's just as always, it takes that "one too many" to make me address an issue in much greater detail.
So this poem is my self-realization of how the man I thought Chris Harder was, the good associates and friends I thought I had when I was in the industry,... they are all people who do not exist. I also might have to admit that the goodness was never there. Whatever the case, at least I'm acknowledging it.
Well, to prove the saying of how every dark cloud has a silver lining, the reaction from the audience was GREAT!!!!
Sunday, January 31, 2016
Why Gays Huff Poppers

And gay males using poppers is no different.
The problem is it is a rotting root.
For the reason so many gay males do poppers is the same as with any other drug. They're trying to escape. They're trying to escape the voices of their anti-gay oppressors past, present, and future that still lurk in their minds while doing a gay act.
This is now becoming such an epidemic that gay males' actions today show that poppers, which was once believed to make it easier for bottoms to have anal sex, is now used for every part of gay sex. From blowjobs, to topping, and even voyeurism of gay sex. So it's not the just doing the act of gay sex they're trying to numb themselves to their unnecessary shame of. It's also the unnecessary shame of viewing gay sex. So as much as many will refuse to admit it, as much as it is enabled by various aspects of the gay community, this enabled escapism, this enabled cowardice is now becoming the greatest drug epidemic within our community due to how long it has been enabled by our community.
This acceptance and enabling of poppers show today's gay males who act as if they're more of a man than the gay males of the past to be total frauds unto themselves. Because before some huffing addict(s) influenced others into using poppers, many gay males of the past still got through anal sex with a big enough smile on their face for homosexual sex to continue.
So what is wrong with so many gays today???!!!
There is obviously something wrong when we start telling each other to have a chemical high when we so much as not just make out with our same sex partner, but watch same sex happening. And treating the acts of foreplay and sex themselves as if their high will never be enough.
Sex itself is enough of a high when taken the way nature intended. If you can't feel that, then why fuck???
For so many gays acting like they need poppers to have gay sex further justifies every right-wingers claim that gay sex is unnatural. Therefore, every popper-user is making us our own worst enemy. Undoing all of the progress gay rights activists (who are not substance-abusers) have been doing for so long to show right-wingers that our being gay and the sex we have is natural. Well, how well are you sending that message if you can't get through sex without huffing on a chemical that's lethal if directly ingested orally, and will destroy your brain cells definitely (and maybe your lungs) over time?
Regardless of how many gays over time have enabled the use of poppers by passing it to a "fuck-buddy", or advertisers and retailers making its intended illegal use of huffing go under the radar of legal authorities by prettying up the name by calling them "cleaning solvents" or "electrical contact cleaners", the use of poppers is still a slow mental and physical suicide for anyone using them. Since the chemical fumes are dangerous, especially if inhaled that closely.
The reason they use the terms "cleaning solvents", "video head cleaner", or "electrical contact cleaner" is to escape criminal prosecution for selling an illegal substance. Because if used for their original purpose, cleaning solvents are not illegal. HOWEVER, the reason you would you walk into a sex shop to buy cleaning solvents ---huffing, is illegal. Thereby making someone requesting them by the terminology that makes the intent for that illegal use obvious (poppers) also illegal.

...What about all of those porn actors who causes of deaths were never told to the public?
For if no details were given, we can easily rule out a transportation accident as cause of death. That therefore leaves, illness they never wanted told publicly, murder in a place that tarnishes their image, or drug overdose (including poppers) which further justifies the negative stigma about the porn world. In short, death that was in some way the result of their own bad choices.
Anyway, defenders and enablers of this gay self-destruction from poppers are the first to say that no study has been done to prove the long term effects of using poppers. Such a defense is a cop-out excuse for them to not even try using the brain cells that poppers have left for them to use. For you don't need to read a study from someone else to tell you the truth. Nature gave us eyes and a brain to observe things on our own, and take note of consequences for certain actions on our own. With that said, the only person who can't see how older guys who have used poppers for years have many instances where things don't register properly...is someone whose brain is either also at that bad point, or are on the road to that same bad point of brain functionality.
Once I came out to myself and lost my virginity, I believe I subconsciously made a credo for myself that made me not want alcohol, drugs, or any subastance during sex. Even though I have made no secret of my experimentation with drugs during some early sexual escapades, in the end, what has made me be so against substance abuse during sex is realizing how I feel about myself and my body as a man who has gay anal sex. The best words to sum those feelings up are:
I love my dick. I love my ass. I love having men I'm attracted to play with my dick and ass. I love licking, sucking, eating out, and fucking their dicks and asses. And I do it all with no shame. Because for the most part, I'm gay. Therefore, such cravings are my nature, which is a part of nature overall.
If every gay male made such a proclamation and actually meant it, then so many gay males wouldn't feel the need to use poppers for anal sex. For they would want nothing to distract the brain from receiving the message from the nerve endings in your dick and ass to give you the unmatched high of sex. For sex is such a great enough high all its own when done right that it needs no enhancement. And part of sex being done right means being done without the shame your oppressors (namely prudes, religious uptights, and homophobes) have impressed upon you. The reason we are having this epidemic of popper use is because in regards to feeling no shame over their gay selves, many gay males do the talk, but they don't do the walk.
With that said, no gay using poppers has any right to criticize a popper-huffing gay-for-pay bitch in denial like Vadim Black (as he admitted to huffing on MTV's True Life). Because Vadim Black huffs (and dopes) out of shame of his gay self.
And if you're huffing on poppers, you're huffing out of shame of your gay self as well.
With all that I've told about myself from my time in porn until now, I am by no means a prude, oppressor, or homophobe. I have your best interest at heart. I want you to have the most mentally and emotionally (leading to physically) healthy sex possible. If I am to stand by my credo, I cannot treat poppers as a thing to call a simple matter of choice like condom use, which may or not be done with healthy intent. However, no matter what you may have been told about doing poppers, short or long term, HUFFING ON POPPERS HAS NO HEALTHY INTENT OR OUTCOME.
It is for this reason that I have decided to never date a guy I know does poppers. It's bad enough tolerating the use of them from a one-night stand, a sex party or backroom tryst, but it's even more disrespectful coming from a significant other. For when you have sex YOU ARE SUPPOSE TO BE THE ONE & ONLY HIGH for your sex partner(s), and you theirs. And I have reached the point where I refuse to compete with a bottle that at it's smallest is a little less than 2 inches tall. Making it at least 33 times shorter than my 5'6" self.
So every time a gay man considers huffing on poppers, as he's putting that bottle to his nose, he needs to think about how enabling and encouraging the use of poppers has shown gay behavior in such a bad light. Then at that point, STOP.
Saturday, October 18, 2014
Mr. Big Fuck
Porn
has taught you that your big dick
Will
make the gay boys and straight girls swoon
Well,
stepping to me with porn as your teacher
Is
going to be your doom
I’m
going to read you as to how lame you are
It’s
a truth overdue to unfurl
I’ll
tell of your cockiness laced with lacking skill
Shaming
you to the world
You
think all you need to do is poke a hole with your pole
And
from the pleasure, I’ll quiver and quake
Bitch,
me doing fake moaning like that of a
porno
Is
the only thing keeping me the fuck awake!
Invent
some moves, learn the definition of “rhythm”
Instead
of being a citizen of Rhythm-LESS Nation
For
what you give is far from pleasure
Instead,
they’re annoying, awkward sensations
Still
thinking your bigger is better
Well,
he makes me moan in bliss for real
And
sweat fine like a swine
So
the bed ends up a hell of a lot wetter
I
am horny to take his 5” again
After
being bored to tears by your 11
For
he knows how to work that 5
And
take me to Heaven
Maybe
you’re used to sluts that don’t do Kegels
Loosey-goosey
holes wide like the Grand Canyon
After
letting porn tell them, “Go big! Go wide! Go long!”
So
to feel anything, big just laying there is enough to stand
Trust
me, the problem is not me, it’s you
I
do my Kegels all the time
So
explain why I’m bored out of my gourd
Meanwhile,
my tightness blows your mind
Mr.
Big Fuck
Who
do you think you are?
Mr.
Big Fuck?!
You
said your big dick would take me to the stars
Well,
Mr. Big Fuck
Try
getting a refund on the porn you used for sex ed
Because
Mr. Big Fuck
The
only think big besides your dick is your ego
And neither are good enough for my bed____________________________________________________
Yes, porn especially has repeatedly told us that when it comes to cock size, "bigger is better". Well, to be honest, I have been bored out of my fucking mind while filming the scenes with 2 of the biggest dicks I've ever worked with Tamar Tyson in "The Booth", and gay-for-pay bitch in denial Double R from "Love of The Dick IV". And I must sight "Love of The Dick IV" because it is a movie too many are gullible enough to believe that to have been a hot scene of mine.
These 2 moronic directors are not the only ones who thought that these guys were very likely good fucks because of their "big dicks". Too many porn movies have been made to push this idea along, and I have slammed them in the process as well. With that said, proof of how bigger is not always better is 1)how I never raved about the sex with Tamar Tyson, and 2)contrary to a blog post I wrote for Pitbull Productions some years ago, know that I was paid to blog for Pitbull Productions, and the truth is the sex with Double R was FUCKIN' LOUSY. Hence why I made him the model for the avatar for the Soundcloud file of "Mr. Big Fuck".
Now, not all guys with big dicks are lousy fucks. After all, I did write "The Great Gotten From Gotti" about how good Favian Gotti's big dick was. The problem is that those of us with tight enough holes and skill (few of us as they are) can all agree that we have had way more Double Rs than we have had Favian Gottis.
Saturday, June 28, 2014
HIM and the backstory
Ryan Driller William Corazon Richie Black Wolf Hudson
If you're gay and don't know those names, maybe these gay porn actor names will sound familiar:
Jeremy Bilding Kevin Crows Spencer Jones Wolf Hudson
The reason why you might not have known the first names I mentioned is because in that order, those are the names they now use in their "work" as straight porn actors. For the record, let it be known that I don't know which orientation all of these guys define themselves as. However, based on the videos and tweets I've come across, most (if not all) define as "straight". Not to mention (with the exception of Wolf Hudson) the seeming "need" to change their porn name as they go to straight porn. It sounds like Escapism 101 in an era where escapism is futile.
For while I no longer follow porn like I used to, I discovered Richie Black's gay porn past with Randy Blue merely by chance. But in regards to his orientation, the video proof is there to show that he is in some level of denial regardless of how 100% straight his recent porn and tweets portray him to be.
I have made no secret of my dislike of the "gay-for-pay" porn genre, and my lack of respect for the performers and producers that hire them like Michael Lucas, Chi Chi LaRue, Jake Cruise, Chris Steele of Jet Set Men, as well as Lovari and the producers of Latino Fan Club. To the point that I have locked horns via porn blogs and Twitter with some of the performers and producers from that list. However, that does not change the fact that being the lustful creature many of us are that we still fantasize about "what if". And if the opportunity to be with such a guy presented itself that we just might go through with it.
That's where the poem "HIM" that I recently debuted at Titillating Tongues comes in.
When something does not add up properly, I demand answers. So as a member of free society, a male having sex with a male yet calling himself 100% heterosexual is such a situation in which I will demand answers. And no matter how in lust I am, if his answers are not to my liking, then we will not proceed with our mutual lust turning into a tryst. For as long as you're lying to yourself, you will NEVER be man enough to have me give your dick and/or ass THE FUCK OF ITS LIFE in reality.
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