Saturday, June 28, 2014

HIM and the backstory

      Ryan Driller     William Corazon       Richie Black        Wolf Hudson

If you're gay and don't know those names, maybe these gay porn actor names will sound familiar:
   Jeremy Bilding           Kevin Crows        Spencer Jones        Wolf Hudson

The reason why you might not have known the first names I mentioned is because in that order, those are the names they now use in their "work" as straight porn actors. For the record, let it be known that I don't know which orientation all of these guys define themselves as. However, based on the videos and tweets I've come across, most (if not all) define as "straight". Not to mention (with the exception of Wolf Hudson) the seeming "need" to change their porn name as they go to straight porn. It sounds like Escapism 101 in an era where escapism is futile.

For while I no longer follow porn like I used to, I discovered Richie Black's gay porn past with Randy Blue merely by chance. But in regards to his orientation, the video proof is there to show that he is in some level of denial regardless of how 100% straight his recent porn and tweets portray him to be.

I have made no secret of my dislike of the "gay-for-pay" porn genre, and my lack of respect for the performers and producers that hire them like Michael Lucas, Chi Chi LaRue, Jake Cruise, Chris Steele of Jet Set Men, as well as Lovari and the producers of Latino Fan Club. To the point that I have locked horns via porn blogs and Twitter with some of the performers and producers from that list. However, that does not change the fact that being the lustful creature many of us are that we still fantasize about "what if". And if the opportunity to be with such a guy presented itself that we just might go through with it.

That's where the poem "HIM" that I recently debuted at Titillating Tongues comes in.

When something does not add up properly, I demand answers. So as a member of free society, a male having sex with a male yet calling himself 100% heterosexual is such a situation in which I will demand answers. And no matter how in lust I am, if his answers are not to my liking, then we will not proceed with our mutual lust turning into a tryst. For as long as you're lying to yourself, you will NEVER be man enough to have me give your dick and/or ass THE FUCK OF ITS LIFE in reality.

I've worked long and hard on myself to learn, then become honest about my sexual orientation, so there's no confusion for anyone to get caught up in. So after my self-discovery of my being a predominately gay bisexual, I will only respect and give the prize that is my body to those who have done the same with their orientation with no actions to dispute their claim. Therefore with a guy that means him honestly admitting to where he falls in the bisexuality (or homosexuality) spectrum.


  1. I have always said that honesty is the best policy. There is a huge difference between being able to perform with those you find un appealing and enjoying the activity with those you share an attraction.

    It is entirely possible to enjoy sex with women as a gay man and prefer the emotional connect to other gay men. I was one of those bisexual men who defend myself in the gay community. I seem to be an oddity in any group, but I am who I am and will never apologize for the past I own.

    I am happily married for more than 15 years to my husband, have had wonderful sexual relationships with multiple women, and proud to be a homosexual. I know this because I do not form the emotional bond with women that I have with my male sexual partners. I may not be bi in the strict sense, but I certainly am an oddity when compared to other gay men who have never had exciting sexual encounters with the opposite sex.

    Own your truth and share it. .. that is the real way we bond with others. On the emotional and physical planes.

    1. I am trying to understand your comment in relevance to what I said in my poem and this post. For to be honest, your comment is a bit all over the place. I don't know if you're agreeing with me, or trying to lecture me. If it's the latter, you're barking up the wrong tree.

      For if you have investigated me, then you know I have long said that I am a predominately gay bisexual. I have also said that "gay-for-pay" porn actors may or may not be the opposite end of the bisexuality spectrum. But whatever their case may be, due to the fact they chose to have sex on camera, the evidence is forever there, so they should own it.

      I have also said in the past that what makes me define as a predominately gay bisexual is the fact that females can get sex from only my lust, while males get sex from both my lust AND/OR my love.

      With that said, the root word to heterosexual, homosexual, and bisexual, even pansexual is SEX. Each word describes who you have a SEXUAL attraction to. Not an emotional attraction. And since porn is about sex, porn producers, directors, and performers need to focus on that aspect of their lives when presenting themselves to the public. So my grievance have always been that these guys need to own that part of themselves, and stop acting like they're ashamed of it.


I HIGHLY respect those willing to stand behind their comments with a name. So if you use "Anonymous" on a viewpoint that challenges mine, IT WILL BE DELETED. For your cowardice to not show yourself makes your viewpoint and you irrelevant.

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