Gift Me 50 Loads For My 50 Years...And Being Sexy AF

I'm sure that title sounds like the sweetest music to the ears of every lust-filled barebacking pig out there. Probably also sounds good to those who don't bareback, but secretly want to. So much so that they still refer to it as "giving a load" even when there's a condom in play. In any case, it sounds like a porno Treasure Island Media or Dark Alley Media's Raw Fuck Club would produce, which if it was, I would recommend it only if I was starring in it. 😉

So as the milestone birthday, my 50th on March 31st is approaching, I'm that lust-filled barebacking pig who wants to be the sole bottom in a real-life version of that scenario.

This craving for so many cocks is very likely furthered by the pandemic. Because the last time I had a cock in my ass before the shutdown in March 2020 was just about 2 weeks prior. Then I made my home video "6 Toys In Quarantine" during the last week of March. In that video, 5 of the 6 toys used were for my ass in some kind of way. And the craving was so bad during one of them, I actually moaned, "Oh my God, I needed something in my ass so bad!"

After that, I played with my butt toys more often. However, that did not make my craving for a real dick disappear. My hole was still there waiting and growing in its needed to filled by a real adult human male's cock. That finally happened in August after a walk in Harlem with a friend, which brings me to why I'm writing this...

It is to put it out there in the universe to possibly make it happen. While I'm sure some doubt such a method, normally I myself would be one of those non-believers. However, I will let you know that this seems to have unexpectedly worked before.

For the hook-up after that walk, in which I flip-fucked but more so bottomed, happened exactly one week after my Thotyssey X-Rayed Sex article "Dear First Prospective Top Since Quarantine" was published. That train ride home had my hole twitching with glee over how the fill of Philip Lynwood's cock relieved me of my ass' hunger to be filled. But that was late August.

It is now 5 months later and still no cock has filled my ass yet. And I have been one sex party, which had good safety protocols, such as temperature checks upon entry and mandatory mask-wearing. However, the rise in cases caused it to have (like most parties) another hiatus. And I never got to bottom there because the patrons had that racist expectation of me being a top because I'm black. Hence the straw that broke the camel's back to inspire me to write the poem "Like You".

So now, my asshole's hunger for cock has grown to want not just one cock, but many. That is unless I found myself getting into a relationship in a short span of time. And with my tenacity,...let's get back to the reality of how my fantasy is not too impossible to believe because I've always said that when I get good dick that I become an insatiable power bottom. The impossible part might be for it to actually happen.

For any kind of birthday gangbang to take place, we need this pandemic to get under control so that the event/room occupancy can have less restrictions. And let's say that part happens. The next potential impossibility is me. Because I know 50 guys I could fantasize about putting a nice load in my ass, but I don't actually know 50 guys personally that I would want to load my hole. Of course, some of them might be able to shoot multiple loads. In that case, that might be my 50.

In any case, I'm dreaming big because it's my 50th birthday. After all the hardships so many bi/gay males overcome with their coming out, I deserve to dream big. Especially after taking good enough care of myself to look this good at this age.

So if this could possibly come about, only time will tell. But like I said before, this is me putting the wish out there to the universe.

Suggested Sex Toy Combo: Wanda & Stroke Sleeve

 

Now that you know how this sex toy combination came about, witness it working and see the end results😉...

The Reconstructive Surgery of a Sex Toy - Thunder Stroke

Have you ever purchased a sex toy, and once you got it home to test it out, it ended up disappointing you?

Well, that happened to me when I purchased a Thunder Stroke 2-in-1 Wand Attachment from XR Brands. I was so hyped to used this. Because I already have their Hummingbird, which I love. A love that is clearly displayed by the cumshot at the end of the XTube video I made using it. With one side of the 2 play pieces on the Thunder Stroke resembling the Hummingbird, I felt that would just be an extra version of that texture. For my real reason for ordering the Thunder Stroke was for the piece that stimulates primarily the head of the penis.

Unfortunately, that didn't work out as I had planned. For I didn't realize before purchasing the attachment that the side of the Magic Wand's head gives less vibration that the top. This miscalculation was because of the fact that I have gotten off by putting the side of the Magic Wand's head on my frenulum numerous times. I even have an unreleased video to prove it. But all of those times were without something possibly obstructing the intensity of the vibration. Hence why the Thunder Stroke didn't work as I had hoped. The 2 stimulation sleeves of the Thunder Stroke get their vibration from the side of a Magic Wand. Unlike the Hummingbird, which gets its vibration from the more intense top of a Magic Wand.

My Aries' stubbornness however refused to make this purchase a waste. So I decided to try making the Thunder Stroke like the Hummingbird. I cut both sleeves off of the Thunder Stroke, then re-attached the one for stimulating the head of the penis to the top of the attachment with a shoe repair adhesive called Shoe Goo. I occasionally checked it over 3 days. Each time, it held firm. But the ultimate test came when I decided to make the video below. For that was my 1st time using it. So I was wondering:

Will the intense vibration of the Magic Wand prove me wrong to think that my reconstruction of the Thunder Stroke would be a success?

Well, there was only one way to find out? And you see it all down below. If successful, perhaps XR Brands will redo their Thunder Stroke.

The Reconstructive Surgery of a Sex Toy: Thunder Stroke powered by XTube

My Dick Fucked With A Finger Fuck

Before Instagram unceremoniously disabled my former account, I posted a video of me wearing the Finger Fuck from OxBalls to incite interest of me doing one of my Nude Dude Review videos for it.

Well, I never got around to doing that review video. However, I did make a Nude Dude Review video of sorts 😉...

You see, to many, by the name of it, you would think the Finger Fuck is only good for giving, well... a finger fuck. However, its various textures for each finger also make it a great sex toy for jerking off. As you will see in the video, there are points where I switch up the fingers my cock slides in between.

Keep in mind that I also lubed up the glove inside as well. And I strongly advise using a water-based lube. For I will admit to my bad of breaking the rules and using a silicone lube during the first time I played with a Finger Fuck. It was a last resort to enjoy the Finger Fuck because all of the water-based lubes I had at the time were being absorbed by the skin of my dick too quickly. So that one mistake has led to a small tear in between 2 of the fingers. A tear small enough to not make the toy useless as you will see.

This was before discovering Sutil, which is what I used in the video. And you can see how long it lasted. For while you see the video has fading transitions, which often indicate a passing of time in between, I never did a re-application of the Sutil. Those transitions were simply editing to cut down the time of the video from the nearly 13 minutes it would have been without editing its length since I was stroking my cock to fit the duration of the sex in the porn scene I was watching.

So take this post and my naked jerk-off in the video below as my Nude Dude Review. And let the cumshot (then jolt) be even more of an endorsement. 😉🍆💦

My Dick Fucked With A Finger Fuck powered by XTube

Heart of Your Hard-On

Before the reading in the video on September 28th, the title of the poem came to me on September 8th. Right before I posted this on Facebook:

The idea came to me out of my love for seeing a man's cock as a work of art by nature.

This is not the 1st time I've seen an upside down heart in a body part I lust after. For if my long-time readers recall, the same thing happened in the backstory for my drawing "Upside-Down Heart Ass", which was an image I saw while banging a bottom from behind. And to this day, I am still flattered that the sex shop Shag posted my drawing on their Tumblr blog.

This is also not the 1st time I've written a poem based off of a cool sounding title. I run with such titles because I take it as a sign that my subconscious knows there's a message, or a new way of thinking to introduce through my poetry.

So now perhaps I've introduced poetry readers and listeners to a new way of looking at a penis. And if you think about it even further, a penis is one upside down heart going into a larger upside-down heart. Making the 2 meeting something that's meant to be.

Lastly, if the above version of the poem is too clean for you, perhaps the XXX gifs and video (from my studio-based and homemade porn) compiled for my XXX version of the poetry video would better suit you. Enjoy. 😉

A Sexually Geeky's Why I ♥ Sex

Dick....

To mouth....

To pussy ….

Or ass!

One of the ways I describe myself in the pic below is “Sexually geeky”. But what exactly makes me sexually geeky?

I believe it’s my realizing how the simple aforementioned body parts are beautiful, and do amazing things on their own. However, when you combine 2 of these body parts together, the things they can do brought together are not just amazing. They actually become phenomenal. 

Perhaps you never thought about it. So let's look at these body parts one by one, and see their initial place and purpose, and what their pleasuring purpose evolves into. 

Dick 

A dick is amazing on its own. To me, even when flaccid it's beautiful. Perhaps that beauty comes from knowing how when it's flaccid, all it's good for is to pee and fondle. However, all it takes is someone to trigger a male's sexual arousal (perhaps by fondling), and that small, soft appendage suddenly grows multiple times longer and wider, losing that softness. So it's newly formed hardness can point at a target for penetration. 

The fascination continues when you think of how the back and forth of penetration, or being ridden by a person (or sex toy) causes a build up of sensations and semen. Making the male orgasm comparable to the eruption of a volcano, but with the sexiness of consent, it's the best volcano to experience. 

And whether the sex is for procreation or just an intimate connection to another human being, knowing that the semen, this seemingly harmless milky white substance that springs from a male's penis that initially seems to only be a sign that a male orgasm has transpired, proves itself to be much more when you remember how semen carry sperm, which create life. So it's stimulating to realize that male has (because of you) expelled the very thing that helps to create every human being you see. 

So these instances makes a dick show that initially, it's just interesting. However, when it meets its target, its abilities along with that of its target, makes it grow in physical size as well as interest.

And you have to admit that to be true regardless of your sexual orientation. For it’s why many lesbians or predominately lesbian bisexuals have stayed in heterosexual relationships, honestly claiming to be sexually satisfied, despite realizing their homo- or bisexuality. 

Mouth 

Ever since you came out of your mother's womb, the mouth has been used as a means to eat, then express yourself by speaking, and held contorting the lips a certain way to convey emotion. At no point thinking that at some point, using it to kiss would make it become part of your activity after you learn about "the birds and the bees". And an even greater shock to learn that as you become more advanced in your sex play that your mouth could become a powerful tool in foreplay with your playmate/lover/spouse. Such a powerful tool that a blowjob (when given right) feels so incredibly good that males of various cultures have for centuries tried to make themselves entitled to it simply because they have a dick. 

Or in some cases, using the mouth to perform fellatio, cunnilingus, or rimming is used in place of vaginal or anal sex for one reason or another.

With that in mind, perhaps this is why so many can be bad at oral sex, or even bad at just kissing. These people have never allowed themselves to evolve in realizing that a mouth is good for more than just speaking, tasting, and eating food. They need to learn you can taste and eat off your sex partner as well. Thereby making the "need" for flavored lubes become obsolete. For you won't need or want anything to change the sexy flavor of your sex partner's skin. 

  

Pussy 

What a vagina is called going back and forth depending on its purpose at that the moment is already fascinating. That fascination grows even more once you describe those abilities it has in that particular purpose. 

Such as how when a female gets her period, and when she is giving birth, it is called its scientific name, vagina. However, when a woman becomes horny, or is in the midst of curing her horniness by masturbation and/or sex, that scientific term "vagina" morphs into numerous words that some consider to be dirty and scandalous. Inciting shame in the sexually repressed. Meanwhile, a word-perv like myself can easily get turned on by such words, and with no shame about it. And the most common of those words is "pussy". 

After addressing that fascinating fact, let's talk about what a sweet pussy can do. It was likely thought of as a pussy when the male put his penis in it, stretching to accommodate its entry. Then again a vagina, where it became the canal in a female's body by which a microscopic seed of life expelled from that dick was put in, making it not have to stayed stretched. Then usually 9 months later, it stretches wide enough to introduce to the world that microscopic seed that has over those 9 months formed into a human being. Then it goes back to being soft flesh – becoming a pussy when it welcomes being filled again by a finger, penis or sex toy for pleasure. And when a penis is allowed to enter, the pussy embraces it. Making it become a means to give pleasure to a male, as well as herself. Thereby making the physical and spiritual connection that is sex. 

And again, this is what one must admit regardless of orientation. It’s why many gay or predominately gay bisexuals stay in heterosexual relationships. Because like a dick, a pussy can feel so good that you procrastinate in acknowledging your true self. The most common way that you can deny it is if you’ve never tried it.  

Ass 

Like most children, I was unaware of the many ways sex can happen. Even though I experienced an orgasm by jerking off, I thought in some strange way, gay males were able to achieve orgasm by being dick to dick. Once I got older and realized gay male sex was primarily anal sex, I then had an inner-conflict. 

For my Christian upbringing was saying "Ewwww". Meanwhile, my gayness needing to be released was curious to know how was this possible. How was it possible for a body orifice that I was for almost 2 decades taught was "exit only", and is only entered as a form of rape, is actually entered willingly by some? And not only that. But it is entered willingly because pleasure can be given from that entry? 

Ever since I came to hear of this possibility, anal pleasure has been something I craved to experience. It went from playing around my hole with my finger. To actually entering it with my finger. More and more, it made me want a cock inside it. 

Now, that I know of that pleasure, while like the typical male, my cock craves penetrating an adult human orifice, but when I bottom,… I’m an insatiable power bottom.

I’m fascinated by how once a skilled guy enters my ass, I’m able to withstand every thrust until he’s unable to enter me again. Even if it means his dick being inside me for over an hour. And I marvel at seeing the slightest hunger for anal penetration in others. 

I probably would have never come to these realizations about sex had it not been for me overcoming the sexual repression imposed upon me. Making this another testament to the saying that “every dark cloud has a silver lining”. And part of that silver lining is seeing sex and all of its parts as beautiful. Not ugly. Not shameful. So all of my writings and videos on the matter of sex is to pass those realizations, and joy from them on to you.

4 Dicks To Bottom Resurrection

I'm versatile, but it had been awhile since I last bottomed. Long enough of awhile that I had to use one of my sex toys to take the edge off. That says a lot when, truth be told, I rarely use my sex toys. And as you can see, I have a lot of just anal-friendly sex toys alone, and more have been added since the above pic.

One of those nights, I tested my new FemmeFunn Wireless Turbo Baller dildo to twirl around in my ass while I imagined getting pounded by one go-go boy I drool over at The Cock. This was prepping me for Saturday which was a day I was hoping the bottom in me would get resurrected. In fact, it NEEDED to be resurrected.

I go to a private naked party in Jersey just about every month. It was so much fun. Even more so since it is strictly by chance that the 2 hot guys I had sex with....I bottomed for. AND while I'm not a size-queen at all.... those 2 sexy men had the 2 biggest dicks at the party.

But FYI, my bottoming for the night did not stop at that party.

You see, I rode bus to the Port Authority as part of a group of 4. Then I found myself doing something I've never done, and always hated seeing other do. I parted from conversing with the group to focus on my phone. I did so because I got a text, which is highly unlikely for me because of the time (1 AM).

That is unless it a booty call.

As it turned out, it was a member of a couple I've played with before. A couple that put my hole through it months ago by both of them trying to fist me, tag teaming me, having one dick in my mouth and another in my ass, and then double-penetrating me.

I could have ignored the text. However, even though I'm versatile, when I get good dick (like the 2 I had at the Jersey party), I become an insatiable power-bottom. I concede when there are no more givers, but I am always ready if a sexy new arrival comes along. So being hit up by that couple was just the new arrival my hole desired.

So since the 2 dicks I had at the party made me horny as fuck, I was ready and willing to take whatever that couple had planned for me. And I write this post saying that I was also able.

As soon as I entered their place, my clothes were off in no time. With tasting both of their cocks in my mouth, and their tongues on my asshole. Wetting it and teasing it of the pleasure soon to come by the head of their amazing cocks passing through. Followed by them putting me in every position. From tag-teaming me doggy-style and missionary while the other watched; to doing doggy style with a dick in my asshole and another in my mouth. Then came what I knew the 2 monster cocks I took at the Jersey party prepared me for ----- being double-penetrated.

Since one of the couple was a tad darker than me while the other was lighter, part of my sexual bliss was born out of being the center of a sexy skin rainbow. A sight not enough in the American gay community look to welcome, especially at parties. It's what can often make more intimate gatherings like this more appealing.

With that, the sex ended with each of them having me on my stomach. I could feel my ass cheeks be a pleasing cushion to each of their hard and fast inward thrusts. Burying their cocks as deep into my ass as possible. The sweat from their bodies rubbing against me. And with my love of wet naked bodies, I had no complaints. They both filled their condoms with a good load of jizz. And my male ego was sweetly stroked by catching the slightest glimpse of what had been accomplished by the tightness and flexing of my hole.

Thanks to the MTA (Metropolitan Transit Authority), with all of its transfers because of weekend track work, my train ride home took an eternity. And after all of that sex, great sex, I was exhausted.

Exhausted, but without one bit of shame. Because of that, I could hear the stanza from my poem "Strut of No Shame" that reads:

I’ll leave not walking, but strutting with no shame
Reeking of sex
Wearing it proud like it’s cologne

Proud of the scent’s effects
Smelling of pheromones, sweet cum,
Salty sweat, and happy tears
I’ll see people turn up their noses  

And I will have no shame or fears

For I spent the night with 4 guys putting their amazing cocks in my ass. 4 guys working up a sweat by thrusting, pounding, throbbing, (and some) then cumming because of my hole. All of that sweat on me, and I never showered before leaving Jersey or after I left the couple that DP'd me. So all that accumulated musk was on me.

Because of the time of the night, the trains were not crowded. However, even with a wool trenchcoat on, someone might have caught a whiff of something. And if anyone did, daring to make a face, I would have simply wrote off their being "appalled" as them covering up their envy.