In Lust With....SeXy_PaPi_911

This is a 1st. I am so in lust with someone that I've seen on XTube that I've had to write about him.

His screenname on XTube is SeXy_PaPi_911.

Initially, his picture reminded me of my best on-camera fuck, Favian Gotti from "The Interview", so I had to see what was the deal with this guy. Because I already figured that sex with people who look alike tends to create close to the same sexual chemistry. With Favian Gotti, the chemistry was so great for me that I forgot I was on a porn set, and even after the director said "Cut"....for Favian, it kept him still dipping his dick into my ass.

Keeping that my theory about sexual chemistry with look-alikes in mind, that would mean that a fuck between me and SeXy_PaPi_911 would be CRAZY HOT with me as a bottom to him as a top. BUT with SeXy_PaPi_911's video screaming "bottom", it makes me want to do some research as to whether or not that sexual chemistry changes when the roles of who's the top and who's the bottom reverse.

SeXy_PaPi_911's collection of videos screaming "bottom" is by no means a bad thing.

With videos like that, it's obviosuly not a bad thing. Can you imagine him doing that jiggle while your dick is in him? I can, and I'm sure it will make the fuck that much hotter. I would just love to see his dick though. And he does show it to us in one of his (at this point) 17 videos, which includes a cumshot that I would love to show the cum-pig I am by wearing and/or tasting his thick man-milk.

I love playing with a guy's cock when I'm fucking him, and a nice dick like his gives me more to play with, and while I can't tell from the video whose cock is bigger, it may possibly break the pre-conceived rules that the guy with the bigger dick is the top, and I LOVE breaking those kind of rules. Just as I would LOVE to fuck SeXy_PaPi_911. In fact, I would come out of my retirement from porn to play with that dick while giving bounce-inducing pounds to that juicy ass of his.

Now if he was to decide to top, he would be more than welcome to do the same to mine. After all, I have been known to make a good number of bottoms once seeing my ass in the flesh decide to experiment with being a top. And I must say that they come out doing quite well.

Either way, as being his bottom self or experimenting with being a top, I believe it's quite obvious....SeXy_PaPi_911 and I should hook up so we can fuck long and hard.

Michael - UNRELEASED, Tré - UNLEASHED

If you recall my dance video from last summer, "Tre Xavier - Touch/So Much Betta", then you may also recall my dedication at the end to the one and only, Michael Jackson. Dedication that shows how my stance in my photo on the right was no accident. Since my retirement from porn I have started talking more and more about my talents as a mainstream performer that I hid from public display during my time in porn.

What's funny about this video is that it was made a few months before I decided to no longer pursue being in the porn movies. I look back now as this video was my subconscience telling me, "It time". A sign that I was destined for more, and distance myself from becoming another porn statistic by either escorting, being a kept boy and/or drug addict, and/or committing suicide. A fate many present porn heros are destined for OR are already living.

The reason I bring this the fact of these porn tragedies is because when I originallly thought to write this post, it was going to be quite short with a couple of videos to show how Michael Jackson's talent has always been lurking in me as an inspration, as some of my dance moves in that video are a clear sign of that. However, after a recent debate in the comments of the blog, Chronicles of Pornia, it is quite obvious that showing my artistic talents after being in porn has made me the envy of some, maybe even a great many. So much so that someone disagreeing with my point of view tried to not only insult me, but my most recent project as a whole, the gay soap opera pilot, "16th & 8th". Out of the sheer envy that I've taken myself away from becoming a statistic like this person's porn hero, who is most likely a kept boy.

Well, being the stubborn Aries that I am, I'm letting nothing (or no one) get me down, which is probably partly why I maintain such a youthful look and energy that makes many not realize that the big 4-0 is just around the corner for me - with no Botox required. Meanwhile this person who tried to insult me, is either there already and it's obvious, or he's young living a life where it will be obvious soon enough . So I'm still inspired by talents like Michael Jackson's to move forward with my performance endeavors, unleashing my talents onto an unsuspecting world.

Since Michael Jackson's death, there have been unreleased songs cropping up. Many can be found on YouTube. With that in mind, I made a playlist of some of them with plans to add more as they become available. There is one dance track that is so classic Michael that I can't get it out of my head. So check this out:....

Now, check out the entire playlist of "Michael Jackson - UNRELEASED".

ENJOY!

Me, The Crying Boy on 16th and 8th

Do not be misled by the title. I wasn't actually crying my eyes out on the corner of 16th Street and 8th Avenue in New York City. It was my latest acting gig. An acting gig that was unexpected actually.

While some may not be down with social networking sites, I feel it depends on if you use them properly. Such is the case as to how this acting gig came about. My friend, Jed Ryan posted a notice saying that Stephen Schulman was looking for "Party Boys" for a gay soap opera pilot he was shooting. Always looking for something new to involve myself in, I sent Stephen an email, and got a reply not too long after saying that he would love to have me.

Stephen was quite detail-orientented, and made sure to make me aware that there would be "same sex scenes of intimacy and comfortable being shirtless in a scene or two". I laughed out loud when I read this because as an overwhelming majority of you know,  the persona of "Tré Xavier" was born out of my being in gay porn. So the idea of being in the midst of same sex intimacy and/or shirtless for me is a "been there, done that" scenario.

The 1st scene that was shot using "Party Boys" that day had me as bit of a featured extra. I was not expecting this at all, so it was a welcome surprise to find out I was to be "Crying Boy". The part had me whining over some guy dumb enough to leave the greatness that is me. I do this whining on the shoulder of one of the featured characters. To stop my incessant whining, she basically in short, advises me to get over the guy who dumped me by being a slut, and makes me guzzle down some vodka for liquid courage.

When doing so many takes of a scene, you never know which one they're going to use. I will say that in this case, one of the takes was a complete accident on my part. What happened was that when the "vodka" gets poured down my throat, for one of the takes, I both gargled then burped, which was a total accident. The funny thing is that everyone seemed to love it. My experience on sets does show that accidents do sometimes make for the best parts of scenes.

Later, there was an orgy scene that required guys to strip down to their underwear. At first, being the exhibitionist that I am, I was a little disappointed that I wasn't going to be a part of this because of my being "Crying Boy". Then I realized a couple of things: (1) I was already been a sexual extra in "Michael Lucas' La Dolce Vita", so that's another "been there, done that" scenario for my exhibitionism; and (2) NOW, I'm embarking on a new mindset for my life - one where so many displays of exhibitionism don't seem to be as necessary as they seemed to be before, even though I still have the body where I can get away with it. Therefore, old fans get to see me in a new light, and I may gain new ones in the process. So in all actuality, everything worked out for the best. Once again, my Aries positive outlook at work.

While I was unable to find out who made the quote, "There are no small parts, only small actors", if you look at that quote the way I do, you find it quite true. A cynic may say that it's a way for someone with a smaller role to big themselves up. Maybe so. But for me, I take each part no matter how small as a way to better my skills, by not just what I take in as an actor, but by what I see of the production as a whole. So while "Crying Boy" can be just a blip on the screen to a viewer, this experience on the set of "16th & 8th" was a refresher course for me. Making this small part a tool to fuel my knowledge-craving mind.

Thanks and the best of luck to Stephen Schulman, Athena Reich, Jed Ryan, and all the actors and crew.

Tooting My Own Hole

Many gay males have fallen prey to the porn-induced idea of how "bigger is better". Well, I hate to be the bearer of bad news, but to those dumb enough to believe that, if you've been following that credo long enough, then it is costing you. I'm sure many of you will refuse to admit it to the price you are paying, even when I point out the facts, and I'm not only talking about mere size queens here. I'm also talking about people who are into fisting. Especially those heavy into it.

Let me start by bringing your attention to a part of my presentation at Sex Worker Literati this past December:

....since I’ve never been on the search for the “next big thing” my ass can take it short, long, thick or thin. Because I’m not one of these guys who is so on the hunt for the next big cock, the next big dildo, the next fist, maybe even the next big kitchen sink to stick in their ass, that they’ve probably have a hole that would echo if I talked into it because it is now as wide as the Grand Canyon, if not more so.

I've spoken before about my reputation for having a tight hole. It's a reputation I greatly enjoy having, which is the reason why while I so badly want to try it, I'm still frightened by the thought of doing a double-penetration. You see, I do my Kegels, but that is really only good for your sphincter. So I know already that my sphincter will bounce back. However, what about INSIDE? For that is also, if not more so a part of why guys like fucking my ass so much. In my 3-some that I mentioned in "Dumb Sell-Out Mo-Fo"  with the Italian and the Romanian, the Italian said he's a bottom, but he got inside my ass, and became versatile. This is not the 1st time that I've caused such a change in a person, and I love the fact that my hole feels so good that it turns bottoms into versatile guys, even if it's for just that one night. Because unfortunately, with so many gay bottoming males not showing the maturity that I have, there won't be too many occasions where bottoms like the Italian will be motivated to attempt such a thing.

It's because guys who are size queens and do fisting don't have the luxury that I have. After a while, by looking for that "next big thing" to put in their ass, they lose that luxury called, "choice". They become locked in a prison of their own making. All because they never thought to grow up and let go of that fascination with a big cock long enough to make their bodies able to take anything else. I've come to realize now, that when I hear someone say that they can't see themselves with a guy with a small dick, it's not so much out of choice, but out of necessity.

Their necessity for a big cock comes from all of the big cocks, big unreal-sized dildos, and fisting (in short, acts of self-loathing) that these guys have opened up their insides so much that when it comes to person-to-person anal sex, a thick cock is all they can take to feel any kind of sensation. Plus, tops with cocks that big don't have to do the work of being totally hard in order to get inside these kinds of bottoms, like they need to be in order to get inside me. Now, while some of these bottoms may do Kegels (like some I've known), this only makes their looseness not so obvious from the outside. However, I've been with a few guys who are size queens and do fisting that once inside, I can almost turn my dick around inside them like I was turning a jump-rope. So needless to say, I don't stay hard, because the only part of my dick getting any contact and feeling is the part wrapped around by his sphincter. And it's because the part of them that I need to feel on my dick to keep me hard has been destroyed....by their own self-destructive mindset and behavior.

I have often admitted that I don't have the thickest dick, but it's not the thinnest one either. Therefore, there is no reason my dick should feel little to no contact with the walls of a guy's rectum unless they've done something to themselves to undo the warm 98.6 degree embrace that should be around any cock of any size. The same warm embrace that guys love feeling when they're inside me, and want more of. In fact, I have never bottomed for a guy, whether spending the night at his place or mine, where he didn't fucked my ass at least twice - once when we got in the door, again as a way to say, "Good morning", and maybe another in between. And each time, he draw it out, because he didn't my tight ass (outside and inside) to make him come too soon.

One guy I recall, once we got to his place, fucked me in a variety of positions like he was doing half of the gay Kama Sutra. We cuddled all night. The next morning, he didn't say a word to me, not even a kiss. He just rubbed my ass, reached for lube to put on my hole then a condom to put on his dick, and fucked my ass like the was doing the 2nd half of the gay Kama Sutra. After he sprayed his man-milk all over me, THEN we smiled at each other and said, "Good morning".

I wondered what inspired such a way to say "Good morning". One with no words spoken, where all he craves....are my anal walls giving a smooth warming rub against his cock. While he was a pretty decent size, I'm sure size queens and fisting bottoms couldn't have given him the same pleasure.

I know that before I get started on this topic that I would offend some people (as if that's new). Some of whom I've had sex with in the past. And because of what I've said here, I'll probably will never have sex with them again. And you know what? That's fine by me, because if you're not man enough to handle the truth of what I'm saying about what you've done to yourself, then you are of no good to me, because you are of no good to yourself.

Now, while I don't agree with either practice, I'll accept the possibility that there may be a way to be a size queen and into fisting and not have your insides widened like the Grand Canyon. However, based on my experience, those guys are a select few who need to teach the majority whose insides are now loosey-goosey. Therefore, these guys have left me no choice, but to instead of "toot my own horn", as they say, in this case, I am motivated to loudly and proudly "toot my own hole".

Keep it tight...outside and in.