OUR Thrusts (Right and Tight)

As I said in my previous post "Working On CHALLENGER", while size-queens may not be as important an issue to the community as racism, sexism, and ageism (the other topics to be addressed in the series), it is still a problem. I feel this way because when looked at more closely, the fact that being a size-queen where men are looked upon as lacking in manhood for a naturally smaller penis is almost as bad as being a racist, sexist, or ageist. For you are ostracizing someone and making them feel less human and less relevant over something that is beyond their control.

In the previous paragraph, I italicized the word "naturally". I did that to highlight the reality that some men have smaller penises by way of their own actions as opposed to naturally, such as by taking steroids. In such a case, the size of their penis IS within that male's control. Therefore, any ridicule that man ensues is self-inflicted.

One matter that had to be addressed in talking about size-queens is the misconception about ethnicity being a deciding factor in the quality of the sex by way of cock size and passion. When I thought I was done writing the poem, but still feeling that it was missing something...THIS was the something that was missing. Once addressed, THEN the poem became complete.

In my post, "Reply To 'White Cocks Only'", I argued against Michael Lucas' racist claims of Blacks being more homophobic by pointing out the fact of how it is not as profitable for Blacks to internalize their homophobia the way it is profitable for Whites who are allowed to internalize their homophobia by calling themselves "gay-for-pay" and be hired by the 2-faced likes of Michael Lucas and other "mainstream" porn studios. Well just as I made a way more that plausible argument there, I can do the same about the lack of Asians in "mainstream" gay porn.

Many have claimed that the lack of Asians in American gay porn is because of the teachings of Asian culture. I have always disagreed with this to a point, and have always found those who believe it to be the sole reason to be totally gullible. Because while there are obvious issues displayed in Asian culture by Asian porn pixelating male genitalia, there are still Asian men taking part in porn movies. Just not Caucasian-made porn movies. If one stops taking the easy route of putting the total blame on Asian culture, one might realize that it may very well also be because Asian men see the writing on the wall of the size-queen mindset of too many porn directors, which make them hesitant to apply to Caucasian gay porn companies. Because the same way Black males are exiled to ethnic porn because of their skin color, a less than brawny physique, and/or hair cut/style indicative of their African descent, Asian males know that unless they have a penis that is above the average size supposed for an Asian male, that they too will be automatically exiled to only 2 choices while Whites have many. 

It is this size-queen mindset that has made Asians like Brandon Lee in gay porn and Keni Styles in straight porn able to perform in more "aggressive" roles in the porn industry. While a lesser endowed Asian gets little to no respect for his sexual prowess worthy of praise. 

This leaves 2 choices for the Asian perceived as "common". And both entail being exiled. Exiled to a) bottom for Caucasian-owned gay porn companies when they are actually tops (and some damn good ones), or; b) do their own ethnic porn.

And choice (b) is exactly what most Asians wanting to do porn are doing. Which puts a wrinkle in the idea that Asians won't do porn totally because of their culture. Because if such was the case, that video included in my post "Asian Sensations Helped Make ME" wouldn't exist. A video that I would imitate in a brief porn comeback intended to blow narrow-minded so-called minds. Undoing all porn-induced racial perceptions by imitating every move....with my Black ass getting pounded and contorted into every position by a HOT Asian top.

Let me re-iterate that my praise of Asian men comes from experience. Because every Asian man I've ever had sex with gave me actual pleasure, instead of making me have to fake it the way I did with my past scene partners Double R and Kamar Tyson, who both had a few inches in length and width on those Asian men. Which just goes to show that when you have a nice tight asshole like mine (inside, as well as outside), you are a much better judge as to whether or not bigger is better.

And let me testify,...IT'S NOT a guarantee at all.

This leads to the other issue addressed in the poem of fisting and the insertion of large inanimate objects (like bats and oversized dildoes), and calling it "sexual fun".

(Anyone in the psychiatric field, please correct me if I am wrong in this summation I am about to make.)

I believe anyone who practices any of these things are victims of verbal and/or physical abuse who have sexualized their abuse as a way to cope. And various forms of abuse are common to out gays. This explains why I am so much against these sexual practices. I feel this way because I don't want people to use body-damaging practices in their sexual expression. And if you don't think it's body-damaging, take note of this fact:

I took this picture of my asshole entering myself into a contest for "Prettiest Pucker" (that I didn't win, but obviously should have). Coincidentally, I bottomed for someone quite well-endowed less than 24 hours prior to taking this picture.

And FYI,...I did not tighten my hole for this shot.

Now, I'm sure the bottoms in these following pics couldn't say the same about their asshole looking as tight in less than 24 hours, which is a shame.

Because being able to see this much human inner-flesh of the rectum is NOT the sign of a healthy sexual practice.

In the beginning of this intro, I mentioned guys naturally having a certain cock-size, and how males can undo that. Well, the same holds true for size-queens. By being a single person requiring your various sex partners to have a big dick, and/or practicing fisting or anal play with large objects, you are undoing your possibility of bottoming for a man of just any size.

If you think this isn't a problem, consider this:

What if the man who treats you more respectably than any other just happens to have an average size penis? Then what?

Are you going to let the size-queen rule, or common sense?

While you think about that, take note of all these ideas being summarize in the 1st poem of my CHALLENGER series, 

"OUR Thrusts (Right and Tight)"

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Write That Down 33 & 34

One thing this blog has become notorious for is for me telling of my sexual escapades. What might surprise some is the fact that I hold sex in very high regard with an extreme respect for its intentions. Of course, as a predominately gay bisexual, that intention is not about pro-creating as some religions want to say is the sole purpose of sex. The part of sex's intention that I'm speaking of is about how it is meant to be an intense moment of upping the ante on your connection to someone. My personal sexually liberated nature just happens to allow that upping the ante on a connection that is fleeting, as well as life long.

Normally, when I see a person I've had sex with at an outing after the fact, I feel like every one in the room watching us, even for a second can tell that we have had sex. We've had that moment of intensely connecting to each other. During that outing afterwards, we don't have to kiss. We don't have to hug. The connection is just in the energy of our interaction.

There have been some sex partners however, who I will see afterwards at an outing, and I will get from them no kind of energy that says that we had sex. I know I give it off, but they aren't giving it in return. Now, I'm not looking for them to date me, fall in love with me, or make plans to fight for gay marriage. But I feel that in that moment of connection, since you gave away something that should be held to some degree sacred (your body), even after the fact, that moment of connection should be respected and acknowledged in your energy. If you don't, then it is signs of a problem within you.

That's why my 1st "Write That Down" quote for this post reads:

For me, even in a romp at a sex party or one night stand, SEX is a connection of souls. So it takes one with issues to so easily blow off the fact that you had that moment of connection.

I'm sure that my feeling this way about sex is why I've voiced such disdain for the way the porn industry is presently being operated, and eventually led my need to exit it. Especially with the industry's present routine of putting escorts in front of the camera, instead of studios concerning themselves with whether or not the people are really attracted to each other. The porn industry's present disregard for that part of sex's intentions is what eventually made it beneath me.

In regard to escorts, it is the very purpose of sex that I mentioned that leads me to believe is the reason why escorts for the very most part don't have lasting relationships. That's why my other "Write That Down" quote reads:

Escorts most often don't have lasting relationships because their work requires them going to a dead place within. And repeatedly going to this dead place makes their boyfriend/girlfriend subconsciously question how often are they going to that dead place with them.

Living in denial of this question is what prolongs the relationship, but it's only natural that such a question would exist. Then surface. Then rightfully causes distrust. Then understandably make the relationship fail.

I'm sure how I value sex may be quite surprising to some. But I felt it was about time to make people aware as to what values I have that make me take some of the various stands that I have taken over time. For I know sometimes comparing the things I do with what I say can come off as contradictory. These quotes make it obvious that they are not.

LeNair Xavier: CHALLENGER - Promo

My recent post, "Working On CHALLENGER" laid the groundwork as to what the poems in my next poetry series are to be about. 

A recent post at The Sword mentioning "Working On CHALLENGER" seemed harmless. Maybe it was to applaud me. Maybe it was to mock me. But the comments from The Sword's readers however...makes it clear as to why these issues intended for my poetry series need to be addressed.

Now you would think I would be angry or hurt by the comments at The Sword. But the truth is I didn't experience either emotion. And I would be a fool if I did. Because after all, with the reputation that it now has, one must take into account of how this is The Sword that we are talking about. The only reason I'm giving it this much attention is because it's a perfectly timed example as to why these issues need to be brought to the forefront in my poetry series.

Case in point: One comment at The Sword tried to accuse me of being "pretentious" for my intentions with this series. Really?!

What is pretentious about wanting to see a community you are a part of better itself? Especially, when it is more than a little obvious that something is wrong with it?

Not a damn thing! Because it's called "caring for you and your fellow man alike". Because we do not live in this world alone.

So to find me pretentious, those readers at The Sword are showing themselves to be people who live their lives escaping the problems in the world around them. Which usually means that common escapism tools like drugs and/or alcohol come into the picture often. And they try to make themselves feel big by damning any and every body who takes a stand to make the world around them better. Because they are actually envious of you, since they are doing nothing but being part of the problem, and nowhere near the solution. And since they're making themselves nowhere near the solution, I probably share their parents sentiments about their behavior. That being how I'm not angry, nor hurt...Instead I am disappointed. But since I'm not their parents, my disappointment isn't crippling me.

In fact,....it just fueled my fire. Thanks, guys!

This poetry series is not directed at The Sword. It is directed at the ENTIRE American LGBT community. The behavior of the readers of The Sword was just a sign of what is making the American LGBT community its own worst enemy.

So whenever or wherever I present these poems, I hope you'll be there. And if you can't be there, watch the videos when I put them online.

Thanks for your continued support.