Clarified Stand On Barebacking

About 2 months ago, in Write That Down #11, I got into a debate with Chris Stansfield over how I feel the stand on barebacking should be a matter of choice, and not people being to be judgemental of barebacking as some are. At one point in this debate, I said that it is unnatural to have a barrier between a man and his partner. I want to write this post to further clarify my motivation to say that.

When I made that statement, I was initially thinking of it from the perspective of the man who wears the condom. However, the fact is that this is a feeling that I'm sure his partner, be that partner male or female, feels very much the same way on some level on consciousness. Proof being not only gays who do barebacking, but also the number of straight pairings everyday that result in unplanned pregnancies.

I had to address this because I personally felt my statement and explanation wasn't in depth enough, and left too much room for misconception of what my motivations for making that statement are, and why I feel some who challenge it are wrong to do so. With that misconception, I'm sure some are eager to paint me as someone ready to scream from the roooftops, "Throw your condoms away and everybody fuck raw!"

THAT IS NOT WHAT I MEANT BY ANY MEANS. Proof being the constant supply of condoms I keep in my bedroom, and dip into and use on an overwhelming majority of my sexscapades.

I still stand by my original statement of how having a barrier between you and your sexual partner is unnatural, BUT I am well aware that because of the times we live in that a barrier must be taken into consideration. For I do believe HIV/AIDS is unnatural as well, and (at least for now) it may very well need to be thwarted by unnatural means like condom usage. But with sex being such a private matter, that does not change the human right to choose, or give others using the "exhausting of the health care system" excuse the right to try taking our right to choose away.

What I find amazing is how a good number of people I know who are so quick to try using the "exhausting the health care system" excuse in order to crucifying those who practice barebacking have the audacity to be smokers.

What is my point?
The point is before going on your witch-hunt, ask yourself how many cancer patients may have gotten cancer because their lungs couldn't handle exposure to (even tiny remnants of) the cigarette and cigar smoke floating in the air? How many cancer fund-raisers are created to combat the so-called strain put on the health care system because of what YOU smokers are doing? I'm not saying that barebacking is a better practice than smoking or vice versa, but I am saying that you need to stop your preaching, and put your "shame-on-you" finger away, and unless you have pointed it at yourself FIRST. THEN you have every right to preach and chastize others. So until then, I see no reason for this constant battle to keep going on.

Maybe I'm wrong, but I suspect such hypocrisy is the case of a former pornstar who I still see in social settings who told me after 4 years of showing me some degree of support to stop sending him my emails. This after I made known my supporting the right to choose with barebacking by posting "Write That Down #11" and the video "Tre Xavier with Lucky Irish" that followed. This being a coincidence is highly unlikely when you take into account of how he doesn't share my feelings on barebacking. Out of respect for his feelings, I never sent him emails about either of those posts, but he's also known for being a control freak which furthers my suspicions. In fact, he once provoked an email war between us by taking a motherly "Shame-on-you" tone in an email showing no appreciation for a post I wrote in his defense.

There's another level of hypocrisy that must be addressed. The worst kind actually. People acting so indignant towards those who have sex without a condom, YET they themselves have in the past, or are presently not in monogamous relationships, but having sex without a condom. It's the ago old trick of using those brave enough to be forthcoming as a distraction so no one finds out the guilty pleasure that you hide either behind your present closed doors or as a dark time in your past. Like the many politcians who have passed anti-gay legislation, but are gay themselves, I bet these anti-barebacking finger-pointers are no better in their sex practices. Even if one feels that their sex without a condom was a mistake, it doesn't justify a "holier-than-thou" attitude where you hide the truth about your own actions.

So in closing, I hope this shows that my statement was for all those that want to shake the "Shame On You" finger at people who have sex without a condom, that instead of taking the "holier than thou" attitude, try understanding nature first. Understand how nature can makes us forget in the throws of passion. Understand how nature makes us hesitant about using that barrier no matter what times we live in and what knowledge we have accumulated, because of the intense degree of intimacy involved in sex. THEN you may have a better understanding of why people bareback without being so judgemental.

F*** and Load

Initially, my plan was to either have a cock in my ass, or my dick in a hot ass when the clock struck 2:57 AM on March 31st, the time I was born. However, those plans changed because I got so much out of Monday going into Tuesday.

I was online at a cruising site and I got an email. It was from Tom D, the hottie I fisted and flip-fucked in "Tre Xavier - F**king By Request" He is on my buddy list, so I know if we're online simultaneously. With that in mind, I have tried getting together a couple of times since, but to no avail. So much to no avail that I started to not even consider it anymore. So his email simply saying, "sup?" was a nice surprise.

In response to that email, while I wanted to say, "Now that I see it's you, my cock is what's up." Instead I got into small talk. He told me he was horny and that he wished I lived closer. We actually don't live that far from each other. It's the lousy service of the subway in this area that makes it take forever and a day to get to him. Because in response I told him I can be out the door in 30 min, and I was, but I didn't get to his place until close to 90 mintues after sending that message.

He told me beforehand that someone else may be there, and there was when I arrived. And I was totally Ok with the company, but he got a call and had to leave unexpectdly. Then another guy arrived to join us. I was unsure of his background, but he was light-skinned and had an accent. We started fooling around with the 3 of us. Tom D sucked the other guy with his ass in the air, and the sight of Tom D's ass made me need to dive in, and eat him out. The other guy started fucking Tom D doggy-style while Tom D sucked my dick. Tom D's ass is always a hot sight. Even though this guy wasn't pounding him, seeing Tom D's ass cheeks squeeze in with each inward movement from the guy along with the sensation of Tom D's great blowjob made my dick hard. Tom D took my dick to try getting double-penetrated. Maybe because of my own craving to get DP'd, I focused too much on it to the point that I became too soft to go inside of Tom D.  He started sucking my cock again, and I got hard again fast, then he put my cock in him and started riding me. Then we changed positions and I fucked him doggy-style.

We took a break. During that break, another guy came by to join us. He was Black and muscular. I have mentioned in the past my overcoming my racism against other Black men. Well, this put it to the ultimate test. For those of you that may have seen some of my profiles, may noitce that in some, I've made it a note that I'm more drawn to complexions lighter than my own, because my artistic eye is drawn to the color contrast. But I make it a point to say that I don't totally write off guys who are darker than myself. And this guy who was about a shade darker than myself, was such a case. Because the more he undressed, the hotter he got. That is until I saw the massively thick cock he was sporting. I thought, "Well this is Tom D's party, so that's ALL HIS. When Tom D starting riding this guy's cock, my thought showed itself to be true....so I thought.

Because after Tom D rode on this guy's cock for a bit, then Tom D wanted me to ride this monster cock saying to me, "Sit on it.".

My initial reaction stayed in my head, because it was the Bed-Stuy ghetto boy in me. Which translates to meaning that I was about to show a lack of composure, as the thought of that huge dick entering me had me on the verge of saying, "Sit on THAT?! ARE YOU OUT OF YOUR MUTHA FUCKIN' MIND?!!!!!"

This initial thought shouldn't be a surprise, because I do have a reputation to uphold of having a tight hole, and anything that seems to threaten taking that away from me freaks me out....ALOT.

However, being how Aries like myself are so often welcoming to a challenge, I went for it thinking of it as an opportunity to see if I could really take that double penetration I still have yet to have the pleasure of getting. Yes, his dick was just that thick, and that picture of it just outside of Tom D's ass doesn't do it the justice it deserves. After all that fear, someway, somehow, I managed to take it in. and rode it hard for a good while. So maybe I can do away with that other fear of not being able to take being double penetrated as well. So Thanks Tom D.

But it didn't stop there.

We went at it long enough for him to put me on my back, and put that log of a cock back in me, and proceeded in fucking me missionary, while Tom D was getting fucked by the other guy who came while fucking him. And this was my heaven on earth, because I love being in a room full of sex with practically all rules of American sexual repression thrown out the window. Hence my continuing search for the best sex party.

After another break, the Black guy fucked Tom D again and came. After that, him and the other guy left, leaving me alone with Tom D who all night wanted very much to return the favor and fuck my ass. We stayed together for quite awhile. Naked, chatting, me sucking his cock, and massaging his bubble butt which always made me hard and need to dip into his hole again. I dipped in enough times that I experienced something I never had before. With my final dip, I found myself having 2 mini-orgasms, then pulling out to jerk-off, having my "Big O".

While Tom D wanted to fuck my ass all night, I very much wanted him to, and I was determined to make it happen. First off was of course by getting him hard, and with my tight hole, that means "like a rock". So I killed 2 birds with 1 stone. The stone being the goal of getting him hard, and while the 1st bird down was showing how much I love tasting that pink head on his uncut cock,

the 2nd bird was showing off my oral skills.

Well once I accomplsihed my goal, I started riding his dick. He does have a roommate and his bed can become quite noisy, especially the way I ride the cock when I really like the dick that's in my ass. Because I've said it before and I'll say it again, unless you're a bottom who is a sad-ass size queen, then you know like I do -----you get the best fuck by having a guy who is some degree of versatile being a top. He then fucked my ass doggy-style. His fuck guided me to lay on my stomach, then he turned me on to my back. The entire time practicing restraint of how much I wanted to say out of my mouth about my enjoy all of this. We took a break. By this time, it was so early enough in the morning that his roommate was getting ready for work. Once I heard his roommate leave, we did it all over again. But this time, free of both, verbal restraint, and the phyiscal restraint I was using to tone down the squeaky bed.

We never went to sleep, and while he went off to work that day, I was grateful for my unemployment because I was able to go home and get some sleep.

As much as I enjoyed the sex, I still left there with a fantasy in my mind. That fantasy is of how much I wish our great sexual chemistry and Tom D's intense drilling of my hole resulted in him spraying a big load all on and in my ass. So the "F***" in the title doesn't stand for "Fist" this time. This time it stands for the usual - "FUCK". So in short, the title stands for, what I want from Tom D....a good "Fuck & Load".

Well, a man can dream.....BUT must he dream?

In Lust With....Sexy Alexi

For the past couple of weeks, I've been having a guy pop up on my computer screeen with a nice stiff dick to put in my ass, and a hot ass to grope while getting that stiff dick stretching my tight hole. There are many gorgeous men to choose from fantasizing about with such traits, but for right now, that hottie's name is Alexi.

I have the program VirtuaGuyHD installed on my computer. I've mentioned this site before in my post about my lust for Denis Reed. I am not a recurring member to the site, and haven't looked back in months, so I recently decided to see what's new. What I found might have been there all along, but somehow I missed it. This blond Russian with a fine phyisque, ice blue eyes, and an uncut cock. I saw his preview pics and had to download one of his shows so he could pop up on my computer screen at various times. Then I downloaded another, so now I have 2 shows and 2 photo collections of him. And I made my settings be that he pops up on my screen about to get naked or already naked, and it's a joy to see everytime.

Sometimes he's exercising naked. Other times he jerks his big dick, and I love watching an uncut man rub his foreskin on the extra-sensitive head of his cock. My favorite however is when he turns his back to the camera and he does a thrusting motion, because it gives me an idea of what his great ass would look like if he was to let my tight hole grip his cock as he pumps up a cumload to spray on various parts of me like my ass, chest, and maybe give me a taste of his cum's saltiness in my mouth.

Those shows of him exercising inspired me to make this wallpaper. If you've seen my Flickr account, then you've seen my skills at doing this before.

It's one thing to imagine what he looks like fucking because of his thrusting motion in a solo show, but what I would like to see is him actually in action. So if any one knows where I can find a video of Alexi fucking, be it straight, gay, or bisexual porn - direct me to it. I just want to see this hottie fill someone's hungry hole with his sweet meat. Sure I'll be jealous that it isn't me, but it is a fantasy, so I'll get over it soon enough.

See also Sexy Alexi Pounds ____

He Was Dumb As A Bucket of Rocks @ Eastern Bloc

How appropriate for April Fool's Day....a tale about a fool.

For the 1st time since he start this party, I went to check out my friend, Ernie Cote's party, Spunknik over at Eastern Bloc. There was supposed to be a Hot Body Contest hosted by Bianca Del Rio, so I was eager to see who entered. There were some cute guys. But one guy's cuteness diminished a bit when he showed how he was actually dumb as a bucket of rocks.

There were about 4 contestants all together. One contestant decided to make his 1st move to do a back-flip off of the little stage in this small bar. He was successful. He then did his dance on the stripper pole in the middle of the bar. Then the next contestant went up. When all the contestants were brought back up to choose a winner, when this one was re-introduced, his friends started chanting "Back-flip! Back-flip! Back-flip!"

I thought it was a  bad idea the 1st time he did it, but if he took that chance again, he was certified to be, in the words of Red Forman of "That 70's Show", "A DUMB-ASS!" Well, he proceeded to prepare to jump.

Simulataneously, I saw out of the corner of my eye, 2 guys come out of the bathroom. With my feeling of how disgusting I find sex in public restrooms to be, I thought, "Oh, here's 2 more dumb-asses.".

Remember, Eastern Bloc is a small space. So it wasn't far for these 2 guys to walk before being in front of the little stage. Then it happened....

The contestant tried his back-flip, and crashed into one of the guys coming out of the bathroom. So 2 dumb-asses collided, and the contestant went down with his face to the floor.

OK, so he looked around to see if he had enough room. Big deal! The fact remains, like I said more than once, Eastern Bloc is a small space. And what was on the line for the contestants to win?.....A bar tab.

Yes, you read correct - A BAR TAB. So this fool did a backflip in a bar small enough that he easily could (and did) bump into someone, wound up with his face to the floor and  a chipped tooth - ALL FOR A FUCKIN' BAR TAB. I might try that for at least $100 cash, but a bar tab, when the amount of the bar tab was never even specified?! If he's willing to take such a risk for a bar tab, then I think an AA sponsor should have been on stand-by for this guy, even if he stuck around long enough to get the prize.

And you would think since where the 2 guy met was right in front of me, that I would tried to stop it. Well, there was too much stupidity from both sides to make me think that far. You would also think that I would have some degree of sympathy for the contestant and his chipped tooth, but I don't. Because he's supposed to be a grown ass man, and he was an idiot listening to his buddies chanting for him to do a backflip. Common sense in an adult would make the equations, "Small bar = limited space. Therefore following friends chanting stupidity = I'm even more stupid than my friends."

Since I take such pride in my intellect, I never allow others to convince me to do stupid things. When I make mistakes, they are blunders born from ONLY my own lapse in judgement.

So the main idea of this story is....loving alcohol and stupid friends makes you do some stupid shit.